My problem with atheism

I'm officially a Catholic Christian. That's not the reason why I'm writing this though. I'm actually not a religious person, and I'm basically a member of the church mainly for community purposes and because I work there as an organist. I don't literally believe in any god that I know as described in any religion. I'm for the separation of religions and states. And I also strongly dislike a lot of stuff that happens in the name of religion or because of religion. So many atheists will say I should call myself an atheist. But I don't call myself an atheist and here is why:

"God" is not clearly defined

The definition of "god" that people are most likely to consistently agree on is "a higher power". I do believe in a higher power, or even more than one. I believe in natural laws, and I believe in the four basic forces of physics. So by that definition, I would basically be a polytheist. But there are also other definitions of god where I have to say "I do believe in that, just not in the way religious people do". "God" is in fact a placeholder for a lot of things people don't understand, and I don't want to categorically deny that those things do exist. I might have a different belief about how those things will look like when we discover them, but I can also agree some of them are not discovered yet.

And since I have no reason to define god in a way that is different from common senses, I also can't consistently call myself an atheist, because it automatically would make my beliefs misunderstood, especially by people that see themselves as believing in god.

Conclusion

I just don't label my metaphysical beliefs with a word. Not because that I'd think they are more special than others'. But because depending on which of the widespread definitions of those I'd use, it would be a different word. When you want to know what I believe in, define your terms first. Then I can answer you, not before.